As suspected, there are no Perseos out there to be had. I should have known better than to be hopeful. But, I'm still thankful for the effort by a total stranger.
I recently read something by another blogger about the discrepencies between deaf and hard of hearing individuals who categorize themselves either in the Deaf Culture, or in the hearing world. The particular article I was reading (and I didn't bookmark it, so I have nothing to reference here) said something along the lines of "If you are deaf or HOH and think you can be part of the hearing world, you're kidding yourself. You will never be one of them."
This statement offended me. My entire life I have been told I can do whatever I want to do. Now, of course, as an adult I realize that's not exactly true. I couldn't be a soldier, fly a plane, or be a telephone operator...or lots of other things, in reality. But then again, just because you have perfect hearing doesn't mean you can be an astronaut just because you really want to. But I'm on a tangent here.
Anyhow, I have never been a fan of the deaf culture and I will tell you why, but first, a disclaimer. I have nothing AGAINST those individuals, only that it seems they look down upon people like me, people who strive and struggle to get through life HOH in a hearing-centric world. I do NOT want to embrace my deafness as the main thing that defines me, and I think that is okay. There are so many other facets about me as a person that make up who I am, along with having a disability. Not because of it.
That being said, in so many ways I am NOT a part of the hearing world. For example...movies on planes. No good to me b/c I can't stick the earphones in my ears, and there are no captions anyhow. Drive throughs are completely off, and its rare that I can order something in a restaurant without having to ask someone to repeat themselves at least once. Swimming. No fun for me, because I have to take my hearing aids out, or sit on the edge of the pool and stress that someone will splash me or push me in, or sit far away from the pool and feel anti-social.
There are so, so, so many times in a group of people when everyone is chatting and talking and I am just smiling and laughing and have no clue what's going on. People who know me well know this, and may turn to me at a certain point to enlighten me to the joke, but the general feeling is that I am a kid hanging out with a bunch of grown-ups and I don't get the punchline. With people who DONT know me as well, the assumtion is that I just have nothing to add to the conversation or that I am "quiet", which is totally not true!! In high school and college I completely played the persona of the dumb blonde because it explained how I never knew what was going on. I often, even with my best friends, feel that I am on the outside looking in. Like I will never be as close to them as I could, simply because of all the things I miss.
I don't know, just some thoughts...
Things to Ponder
3 years ago