So yesterday was my meeting with the Unitron rep. Spent about an hour with him and my audi (both of who are great) trying to get the unitron aids set to a comfortable level for me. Left there feeling pretty uncertain, just cannot seem to get the tinny/mechanical/high frequency sound to be gone and for it to be more natural. I do not feel as though I am hearing even close to the level I was with the Widex or with my current aids. I only wore the unitrons for a few hours before giving up. I was in tears pretty much all afternoon listening to how horribly distorted sounds were (dog barking sounded like a fucking alien), couldn't understand my husband or son, the volume was WAY lower than I am used to (when no one was specifically talking or making noise it sounded silent...not picking up the background sounds I want) and the background noise eliminator program is, ironically, terrible.
So I switched back to my Phonak Perseos and I am giving up for now. I just can't do it anymore. This is so fucking ridiculous that I cannot just GET WHAT I HAVE NOW!!!! Why would they stop making a hearing like what I have?? At this point I feel foolish for actually being hopeful that I might actually get something BETTER that would give me more freedom. Yeah right. At this point I would be happy to just have what I have now. I feel very risky running around without a back-up, especially now knowing that if they DO break, that's it for me.
I just keep thinking how totally and utterly unfair this is. Its bad enough that I have this disaility and problem and have to fucking deal with it, but now I can't even keep myself at the same level??? I don't even know where to go from here. My husband suggests I find a new audiologist or go somewhere bigger and maybe I should. My audi seems like she doesn't have THAT much experience with some of the newer aids, but she is always willing and accomodating to help me, get a rep in, get on the phone while trying to program me. I emailed my old audi, who works on a larger scale, and asked for guidance or advice what to do next. She had basically told me that I needed to give one of these new aids a several month trial in hopes that "it would sound more natural to you." She has always been one to push me towards new technology and a cochlear implant. (Side note: yeah right!! What if I hated the sound of the cochlear? I'd be screwed.)
I just don't know what to do. I refuse to accept that I cannot find a fucking hearing aid out there with the power of the Widex that also has a program for a background setting!!!! I mean, those aids with that program have been around for years!! How can they have just...eliminated them???
Things to Ponder
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